Teaching adventures and rapping

What a week! With mom and dad in Trinidad on a missions trip, Michael and I have been busily cleaning, cooking and doing laundry like never before.
On the school front, life has never been so interesting, challenging, and sometimes very confusing. In one week I've dealt with sex, violence, psychological disorders. Two of my eleven year olds are currently dating and the conversation has been often coming up about "making out." Man, that scares me. I've had to phone up parents about conversations about sex while they were working out in the hallway. I don't think I've ever had to grow up so quickly.

One of my students might be gone tomorrow until the end of the year. I don't know exactly what's "wrong" with her. I just know she can be the most sweet, cheerful girl one moment, hysterically laughing the next and then fuming angry crashing and banging things the next. Doesn't quite work well in a classroom. Today i did feel like I was gonna die. I am flaming angry at the devil for all he's stolen from her family. Maybe the freedom will not come today, but I will always believe for her.

I've finally realized I have this fear about being "angry" in the classroom. I seem to have an inability to really communicate anger in a real way. I"m one of those "flower children" who always likes to see the bright side of life and "pretend" everything is fine and dandy. Not anymore something's gotta break, something new has gotta take.

My students think rappers are amazing. Well, Father God, have you got some of your own that you're dying to tell the world. I'm ready and available. Take me in.

Destroy the sickness called sin
Destroy all that stops me from entering in.
Into you, Kiss me back to life,
I'm called to be your wife, but I act nothing like you. I just sit her and stew
inside. When I really wanna change, tired of being strange, rearrange my being. Bring life.
Throw out the strife. Take out the knife. Resurrect, redirect, reconstruct,

Wanna be more direct, in your face, fill more space, cut to the chase and love
Love that is true but love that is strong like King Kong, not just ding dong Hong Kong, but long long enduring. curing the sickness called sin. You know where I been and I ain't been in many rough places my whole life through, I ain't seen others screw up their lives the ones they love. They don't know the hope. Don't know how to survive the storm, Navigate this world's system. My mission choose you, choose peace, God release,

For God did not send His son into the world to condemn the world, but that through Him the world might be saved (delivered, rescued, healed, cured).
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.
-the Bible